Mamma...U define my world

" There is no better feeling in the world than being wrapped in the warmth of your arms. For me you define me the word "BEAUTY. I do believe in god. For me God has got a face. YOU are my living god mamma. I Love YOU.."

Dear Mamma,
 I don't know where to start from, your patience, when you left 41 missed calls on my phone just to make sure that I wake up on time when I am 250 km far from you, your words that give me a rope of hope to save me from sinking into the world of darkness “babu sab tkh ho jaaega..don’t worry..!! “your love which continues to endure in every season, oblivious of the worries you are carrying in your head or your altruism, when you came all the way from Delhi to meet me in my hostel when I had fever. If anyone asks me to define your love for me in one line…mom believe me..

"You gave me a life through your life"

When I peep back into the past..Oh God!!how much I have been troubling you ,be it the pain you under went to get me to this world or be it today when you lend me your ear at any hour of the day, just to hear my stories whenever I feel dejected?

Oh man!!!! I still remember when I used to make my teachers go crazy crying out for you in my kindergarten.

 I miss those nights when you used to hold my hands and wrap me in your arms until I used to fall asleep. You never complained when my restless movements in sleep made you face sleepless nights.
Remember, when I came running and hid myself beneath your veil crying aloud just because someone said that I got a darker skin tone than you and Ishan, and you; you just smiled at me and started collecting my tears in your lap saying,” I can’t let my angel's tears go waste.God will punish me. You know something that anyone who says you like that is just jealous of you because in spite of this wheatish complexion you are prettier than them."Mom, you made me learn to look at this world through positive window. The most selfless soul I know on this earth, your divine love with which you have nurtured me is boundless and infinite.
The only 7 days of my life which I wish to erase from my life are the one when you were in hospital and I was not allowed to meet you.Oh Man...shittt!!! again the same goose bumps, again that same feeling of angst. My life without you is unimaginable,meaningless. I am soul less without you.  
 I have lot more to say but  penning down 365*20 days in a single post is impossible. All I know is,

“I belong to you, you belong to me”

My first injection, my first stage performance, my first board exam or be it my first step in the hostel, thank you for being always there to hold hand of your babu, when she was jittering…I seriously don’t know how you do it..!!!!

Had you not praised my scribbling, I won’t have ever been able to paint this for you..I painted this with just you in my mind.

      I know that I will never be able to bring this post to your notice because I don't have the courage and sometimes...

                     "Silence is the most beautiful expression"

All I wish is that in every birth God blesses me to hear lullabies in your voice. Mom your lap is the safest place on earth, no worries,its only you and me...This letter is incomplete without your favourite lines..

“I belong to you,You belong to me.”

Yours lovingly,

Dishu..